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I am 26 years old and I have dealt with systemic lupus/scleroderma since I was 12 years old (that was my date of diagnosis, but I was sick much longer). I try to use my skills of writing and other artistic ventures to spread the word about chronic pain and what it's like to be really sick- and not look like it at all! From the outside, I look like any other single, young mother. Trendy clothes, makeup, frazzled nerves, and usually a cup of coffee in one hand and my toddlers grip on the other hand! But, on the inside, under all the fashionable fixings, it is a whole different story! This blog is my chance to tell that story, show the pictures, and hopefully help others to not be so quick to judge.
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Thursday, December 17, 2009

What's up today 12-17-2009

Well, it's another day. I've been pretty stressed lately which has a major effect on how I feel physically, so I really feel crappy. Stress and pain are kind of like a 'self building' chain- stress causes my pain to increase which increases my pain which increases my stress...you get the picture? So, if I don't find a way to lower my pain level and/or my stress level, I don't know where I will end up! I woke up this morning in so much pain I didn't want to move... I had spent the entire night having nightmares about people stealing my car, money, christmas presents and pain medicine! Then when I woke up in so much pain, I realized why the pain medicine was a part of the dream. I hope I can get something accomplished today, but it's not looking too promising. I have taken my first dose of meds today- very little effect. Unfortunately, regardlss of how well it works, the amount of things to do remains the same!!
Welcome to the confined, conflicted, confusing world of a pain sufferer!

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